Nocturnal Works

 At the end of the 20th Century, I was completing my Master of Business Administration. The tasks were mind-numbing. Nothing creative, nothing inventive. Just lots of busy work! I was working full-time and also studying full-time (four units my first trimester - wow). I found myself stretched. One afternoon, I needed a nap. I felt a bit guilty taking a nap with so much work to do, so I told myself that I would think about my assignment and start working again when I woke up. It worked! I woke up and began completing the assignment. The answer just seemed to be there in me, with little effort on my part. I had a new way to get through these tedious assignments!

I began focusing on my studies before bed. I would read through the assignment a few times and review the content and then go to sleep. Once I woke, I could start working. I thought this was a great thing, especially as I had so much work and study to do.

Fast-forward nine years. My marriage was about to end, but I was getting not honesty, but being gaslighted. Once things ended - surprising me after dinner one night - I began to review the relationship, looking for clues that she would do this sort of thing. Also, being a decent human being, I began to look for any areas where I could have been partially responsible (I wasn't). As I began to ruminate over these things, I unknowingly began to use my sleep "strategy" - thinking about this before sleep. My dreams quickly became nightmares.

I have had those nightmares since 2008. I am starting this site in 2024 to focus on my dreams and how I might learn more about this part of myself.

Aroha nui,